Chapters in the Story of Consciousness – Lecture Series, Vol 23 . read
What do I want
If you are comfortable with the basics of getting to the Being state, you are ready to take a very big leap that will focus your practice and bring you to a higher level of ongoing self-awareness. If you are not sure of your ability to get into the being state, I would encourage you to take this next step anyway. It will help you to develop your skills for getting to the being state. The next big step is to ask the question, What do I want? The way to do this is after settling into your meditation, address this question in your mind to the universe.
This should not be a question you force but should be arrived at it by exploring your emotions before you begin your meditation and really “feeling” the desire for an answer.
This exercise may expand on what you already think you want or refocus your desire in another direction The first test of this exercise will be getting comfortable with the information that you will get back. It may seem strange; you may think you are making it up or it just feels unnatural in the beginning. Don’t struggle with this just let the information come in and be aware of it, above all don’t judge it as it comes into your awareness.
Once you receive an answer you may have a desire to act on this information by forming intentions that will lead to a plan to manifest a desire that has come up as a result of this new information. When you are ready you will form a thoughtful intention just as you would during any meditation (for more information on this read the Law of Attraction blog).
I suggest asking the “what do I want” question often in your practice it can bring you back to issues you should focus on but don’t realize.
At this level you are communicating in very subtle (higher frequencies) of consciousness and this is where the higher intelligence and experiences are that you can access. This information might come from the subconscious, the MUOEC (soul) or the greater field of awareness, Existence Consciousness (EC).
I will offer a little more guidance on working with the “what do I want question.” If you need clarification about what is coming in ask short but very clear questions. Information coming in from a higher source can be disarming as it may be much different than an expectation you may have had. Surrender to uncertainty, let go of any attachment to an outcome let the information comingle with your awareness in all of your exchanges. Accepting information that may seem different than what you had been thinking in the waking state is part of the evolutionary path. It is a big step forward, have courage. A note here: accessing your subconscious is a higher conscious level experience.
We become the things that we experience, think about, investigate, form an intention to create and are inspired (in-Spirit) to create. This is the positive love of the north pole of duality. The negative south pole of duality is fear. You can make a choice to turn your south pole experiences into a north pole experiences. You can do this by embracing the negative experiences that is from some fear or emotion. Another word for embracing is surrender. By surrendering them to the universe, EC, your higher self, or God you can be a dispassionate observer. You will observe your intentions being manifested without suffering the pain of the ups and downs of the process. This is a well vetted out concept in many traditions and practiced around the world. I bring this up here because what we want is often related to remembering an underlying fear that is preventing us from reaching a state of peace and serenity. For more on this read my blog on Surrender.
After settling into your meditation ask What do I fear? This exercise is like the “what do I want” protocol. This should not be a question you force but should be arrived at it by exploring your negative emotions from point consciousness. In this state you are without emotion and can explore the underlying cause of a negative experience you may want to explore. Form an intention to find the root cause of the fear. You may know the answer if not go backward in time, even to your early childhood until you discover it. If it is stress or depression, it is usually connected to a past event. If the emotion is anxiety it is connected to a future event.
Even if you think you know the answer to this question, I recommend going through this exercise. It can also change your perspective on a particular fear by giving you more information about it. Put the “what is causing my fear” question out into the universe for answers. Let the information come in and reflect on it over the next several days, become friends with it, understand its source, make your peace with it, and then do the following:
The mind is susceptible to suggestion that is why hypnosis is possible. The power of intention can be used to remove a fear from your subconscious. The fear has probably been lurking there for a long time sabotaging you in different ways you were not even aware of. Create a powerful but simple suggestion to eliminate the fear or habitual negative routine you are in. Tell the subconscious that you no longer believe in what is was causing the underlying fear. You have accepted it, understand it as a lesson, embrace it as a gift to you for the evolution of your consciousness and will no longer be responsive to it. Ask the subconscious to eliminate the fear now. Depending on the level of fear you may need to reaffirm this suggestion or form more direct instructions to the subconscious. Make sure you really understand your fear before expressing your intention to the subconscious.
For more information read my blog The Subconscious.